FlashBack

Hari ini pengumuman hasil SNMPTN 2009.
And I just feels like it bring me back to one year ago. My effort and sacrifice to pass this exam. Okay let's see my whole adventure!
I was graduated from higschool in 2007 and feels so excited to continue my study at Communication Studies Major meanwhile my dad has already made a plan for me to continue my study to medical faculty *sigh*
My ego said it isn't right to follow my dad's mind cause it feels like impossible to enter that faculty. Okay I'm a science-class student and having notbad mark in my report but actually it's all came from the competition that I won and brought my school's name to the top not from those science exams that I got in school and too bad I just too shame to told it to my dad :)
So in the first year of SNMPTN, I failed!
I'm not that sad since I don't put much effort in this exam so I feel like just nothing to lose.
Then in the second year of SNMPTN
I've been prepare for a year. 8month in Medan and 2month in Jakarta. I put a lot of prayers&tears for this exam since now I've been preparing so hard and I feel like I have to make my mom&dad proud of me or at least just for me.
And the day has come. I did the exam well and I thought maybe this is the time I can feel happiness like my other friends had
But I wrong. yes I wrong! I made a mistake on SNMPTN's registration form and it's simply a stupid mistake for person that join the SNMPTN for the second time. And as it can be predicted before when the result come-out, I failed (again). I feel pity for myself but I feel bad to my parents more. They've been put their hope high to me and I was like throw it down into the deepest hole and it feels so ashamed for me cause they've been giving all that I need to support myself join this exam. Sorry mom&dad :(
And now in 2009, I heard some friends of mine did the same exam and I also feel the same-pressure like they had. My mind flew me back to one year ago when I'm like in a rush and my heart beating so fast when open result's site. Though I have to face the truth that I failed.
Now, I still feel the same. The same pain. The same regret. But I want to erase it cause it's bad for me and I've to let it flow
I smile and hope all my friends also smiling see the monitor. bunch of luck !
xoxo :3